I lost my safety blanket this week, Dale went back to work. He's been an absolute rock for the past six weeks. So obviously this is when my post natal depression really cranked up a gear.
Total panic set in. I felt sick with anxiety. Every minute felt like hours. I was exhausted yet I couldn't sleep as my mind was racing. I felt lost and hopeless. I seemed to be doing everything wrong and I had no idea what I was doing. I didn't want to leave the house because I didn't want people watching me, judging me for being a shit mum.
Luckily my GP is on it and super attentive (she already sorted my counselling) and prescribed me with anti-depressants. Unluckily, the side effects are making me feel worse - even tireder, headaches, groggy. They should wear off in a week or two, then the tablets will start to do their job a week or two after that. Then hopefully the thoughts and feelings above will be under control and eventually go away.
I've titled this post Rock Bottom, I really hope that things will get better and that was my rock bottom (lol, bottom) because I am desperate to fully enjoy being a mum, being kinder to myself and being mentally well.
And I think I will because I have
• my name on a waiting list
• medication
• loving and supporting friends and family
• all 10 seasons of Friends on netflix
Total panic set in. I felt sick with anxiety. Every minute felt like hours. I was exhausted yet I couldn't sleep as my mind was racing. I felt lost and hopeless. I seemed to be doing everything wrong and I had no idea what I was doing. I didn't want to leave the house because I didn't want people watching me, judging me for being a shit mum.
Luckily my GP is on it and super attentive (she already sorted my counselling) and prescribed me with anti-depressants. Unluckily, the side effects are making me feel worse - even tireder, headaches, groggy. They should wear off in a week or two, then the tablets will start to do their job a week or two after that. Then hopefully the thoughts and feelings above will be under control and eventually go away.
I've titled this post Rock Bottom, I really hope that things will get better and that was my rock bottom (lol, bottom) because I am desperate to fully enjoy being a mum, being kinder to myself and being mentally well.
And I think I will because I have
• my name on a waiting list
• medication
• loving and supporting friends and family
• all 10 seasons of Friends on netflix
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